Hold your head high, Heavy heart.

This is not a sad post.
This is a weighted post.

This morning I woke with a heavy heart. More than usual.
I have always been one to over feel. One to over think.
Can I easily hide what I am thinking? or can I easily close my mouth when I feel words need to be said.

These things that attribute to who I really am have also attributed to my downfall.

I have lately ( with the election ) really been trying to find out where I stand on issues.
In the past I have spoken with such confidence in matters that I know nothing about. I never wrestled with why I belief this or that. I usually landed where my parents taught me. To this day I still do on a lot of matters.

But
My heart has be tackling matters of just heaviness.
( Darn you election ) #onlyeveryfouryears

I am thankful for the Lord who is so graceful in my human thinking and how I work through things and come to conclusions.
I do not know the all the "right" answers.
He does.
So thankful that I can openly talk to him about my conflicted mind and heavy heart.
{Praise}

Baking and puzzles

 I made a delicious Pumpkin cheesecake recipe ( hana did most of it ) it was lis nap time :)

 Carl teaching lils the piano :)

 We are into puzzles right now.. it seems every year at this time we take out our puzzles

I just LOVE this picture

stuck.

Need curtain Ideas ... where to buy what color .. where to get the rod... I am so frazzled by the size of our windows.. I might need a someone to really walk me through doing this.. Ideas?

Choosing to be Joyful

Today I am choosing to be Joyful even when sadness lingers. I have so much to be thankful for and I feel so blessed. I forget sometimes.. With Christ we have no condemnation and we have instead salvation and grace. I have been growing up. Finally. @27. I still have much to learn and mature in. I never think I will fully understand everything.
I  found myself really sad and just heart broken after the election.
Granted I have never been a fan of Mitt. Ever.
But republicans everywhere lost ...
Carl and I laid in bed that night after the elections and just prayed for our country.
I have to remember this world is not our home.
That we are and will be with Jesus.
I have found that I have to remember that my heart and my life belong to Jesus Christ. That sometimes I get caught up in the world. We must remember the word. Cling to it really. Things are changing all around us but Jesus never changes.
Even though hope is sometimes really hard to find we must Fight to find it.

New Cameras!

We recently have been able to purchase ( with insurance money ) A new camera body and 2 lenses so now we have a total of 2 cameras and 3 lenses! What a blessing!
We are still looking at purchasing a flash and possibly so photography workshops! If we can budget that in :) I am hoping!

I got to spend some time recently with a close friend and her son and tried out the camera! I KNOW amazing huh!
Were excited to get to start booking some more photo-shoots!

Lils is now 7 months old! People always say " they grow up so fast" I did not believe that with the endless nights and long days of adjusting to being a stay at home mom. Now though, yes... I do believe it !

One Month

7 Months! 

GInger snap inspired

Such goodness can come from a cookie.
Why yes.
I had a few gals over for pumpkin carving and Beef stew/ ginger snaps.

Yes, I am a HUGE fan of ron paul and Carl is a little nerdy :) But aren't these just fun!
Just to get the fall celebration out of me cause come this Thursday ... wait for it...
CHRISTMAS
Say what?
Its just november?
What about thanksgiving?
Putting up the tree is not going to halt thanksgiving so no need to worry!
We just have decided Christmas is better 2 months rather than just one.
This year we are doing Thanksgiving with my side of the family and we are really excited. Carl and I love watching lils interact with her cousins! SO precious.

Heart change

God can change you.
God can work a new in your heart.
God can show you how to forgive or how to get over pride.
God can soften your heart.
God came to save you.

Words I used to read but never believe or just hope was true.
As of late though I have found them to be more and more believable. I have found them starting to become the truth in which I TRY to live my days by.

I really feel God is working on my heart on a lot of issues that I have stuffed away.. or have naively flaunted with such vulgar confidence.

I think not only with the health issues that have arisen but how to honor my husband not only outside our door but inside our home. How to be a Godly mother. How to live a gospel centered life. How to be a loving daughter. How to be a good Aunt. How to be a supportive sister. SO many things.

Health update. I blame the weather BUT alas I have so slacked off. I wish I had a gym membership but I am not sure if that would make to much of a difference.
Were still doing good.
Just not what we OR I was doing prior to the weather turning to Crap...
But this is still a priority in my heart.
AND things that are really important to you..you WILL make time for if not you will make excuses for...

I need to make time and not just talk about it.

( BUT really ..blast to all the weather and fall-ish food and desserts)

Life is good.
Still practicing Thankfulness.