GInger snap inspired

Such goodness can come from a cookie.
Why yes.
I had a few gals over for pumpkin carving and Beef stew/ ginger snaps.

Yes, I am a HUGE fan of ron paul and Carl is a little nerdy :) But aren't these just fun!
Just to get the fall celebration out of me cause come this Thursday ... wait for it...
CHRISTMAS
Say what?
Its just november?
What about thanksgiving?
Putting up the tree is not going to halt thanksgiving so no need to worry!
We just have decided Christmas is better 2 months rather than just one.
This year we are doing Thanksgiving with my side of the family and we are really excited. Carl and I love watching lils interact with her cousins! SO precious.

Heart change

God can change you.
God can work a new in your heart.
God can show you how to forgive or how to get over pride.
God can soften your heart.
God came to save you.

Words I used to read but never believe or just hope was true.
As of late though I have found them to be more and more believable. I have found them starting to become the truth in which I TRY to live my days by.

I really feel God is working on my heart on a lot of issues that I have stuffed away.. or have naively flaunted with such vulgar confidence.

I think not only with the health issues that have arisen but how to honor my husband not only outside our door but inside our home. How to be a Godly mother. How to live a gospel centered life. How to be a loving daughter. How to be a good Aunt. How to be a supportive sister. SO many things.

Health update. I blame the weather BUT alas I have so slacked off. I wish I had a gym membership but I am not sure if that would make to much of a difference.
Were still doing good.
Just not what we OR I was doing prior to the weather turning to Crap...
But this is still a priority in my heart.
AND things that are really important to you..you WILL make time for if not you will make excuses for...

I need to make time and not just talk about it.

( BUT really ..blast to all the weather and fall-ish food and desserts)

Life is good.
Still practicing Thankfulness.

Why I love Photography.

 Capturing moments that should last a lifetime.

Thankfulness

When ever I start to get down... ( Seriously this weather is just draining all the light out of me )
I am trying a new thing.. Trying as in ..dragging my feet and clinging to the ground while screaming.
What is it?
Thankfulness.
Salvation. ( more like in awe )
I am thankful for a wonderful husband...
SO loving and caring and such a hard worker!
I am thankful for a healthy daughter.
Thankful for sisters.
Thankful for my parents that love each other!
Thankful for Carls job.
I am thankful for our home.
I am thankful for cars even when they do break down.
Random thankfulness is as follows:
Warm bed.
Christmas music.
Cuddling with Carl on Wednesday nights with carl watching Modern Family ( thats now our "date night" ) haha.
Thankful for hot coco.
Thankful for reading time when I do get it.
Johnny cash's voice
Worship music... I mean good music.
Cuddle time with lils
WHY am I writing this all out?
Cause sometimes I forget. like today. I just get overwhelmed with negativity and just get consumed with just blah thoughts and or anxiety.
 I have been driving to olympia a lot lately and with carl commute to olympia 5-6 days a week and then seeing his family every once in a while .. the gas is just draining us SO
We have decided to look for a church in Shelton.. I am still going to go to WEB every other tuesday but we have to start cutting somewhere... Here is the thing though.. Church hunting by yourself is down right depressing! I just do not know what to do .. cause going to church at night is just pushing lillys bed time and carl is exhausted after work. Maybe we will just do "church" at home till lils is older.   I am really looking forward to the " why are you not going to church? " "how are you growing in the Lord if you are not going to church?" questions.. so excited .. n.o.t.
Overall lets just say in order to get through this drab weather .. lets be thankful. Lets be grateful. Above all let us in some way.. even small way.. find joy! I know .. Sue is being positive. Weird. and no I have not had wine today.

Who knew a pumpkin patch could be so much fun!

I went with a friend of mine and her little ones. :) We had a very good time! I loved it. I can say this is my first official outing with lils. By outing I mean Kid function. I really enjoyed it. I think one reason why is cause lils is really showing emotions and reactions to things now :) I really love watching her grow in her personality! So freaking adorable.

Getting creative with a 6 month old

I pushed myself to join some events and programs just so I get out in fall ( downpour of rain ) weather. *Calvary WEB bible study
*Mops
*Church on Sundays
* Mission of Motherhood study

I am enjoying this activities.

BUT I think I really took advantage of the nice weather this fall and I really miss walking outdoors with lilly and doing outdoor things. I am trying to make new mommy friends so I can get out and do things.. cause frankly days at home.. ALL day are just really starting to wear on my " am I a human or just a robot covered in spit up" instincts.

SO today going to the mall with just lilly and I.
Should be interesting.
I am trying to find things for lilly and I to do on these days. So If you have any ideas !!! pass them my way! :)
Besides that enjoy your fall days! We made Vegetable soup yesterday in the crock pot and Loved it!

Weigh in and frustration +motivation

So I have gained back 2 pounds so the total loss is only 5. I am so frusterated. I keep hearing myself say .. well you were sick then lilly got sick. BUT that is no excuse. This is supposed to be a lifestyle change. At the same time I have to remember that I can not get to down on myself and I have to just keep pressing on! So with that said It is gorgeous out and as soon as lils wakes up we are going on a long walk. I do know where and what I did wrong so I know what to fix!

MUST KEEP GOING!
encouragement. encouragement. encouragement.